My Reflections in the Mirror (Lake)
Wow, it's really been that long since my last post. Eh, I'm not sorry. Moving on.
Last Monday, while camping in Lake Placid I wrote this in my journal:
The next day I rode almost one loop of the Ironman Lake Placid bike route.
I couldn't help but boast with pride on my Instagram account:
Allow me to take a moment to elaborate on that experience. Through all the anxiety, the falls, the anger (as the demons leave my body) and the tears, I was so humbled by all the beauty that I was able to take in that day. It first hit me maybe at the 20-ish mile mark as we were making the descent into Keene. The highway (yes, highway) narrows and the poor-excuse-for-a-shoulder is framed out by a bullshit, low rusted barrier which overlooks the mountains and a beautiful body of water. The sight was so overwhelming that I found myself gasping for a breath and holding back tears; literally breathtaking.
Following that photo, I downshifted only to have my bike chain drop and I fell over.
But, I digress. I conquered almost 3K feet of elevation. I did a triathlon the night before. The day before that I swam one loop of the Ironman course. Goddamn, I was proud of my body. But why do I hate on myself?
Thankfully, I was saved by the ESPN Magazine The Body Issue 2018. Lauren Chamberlain is a powerful woman, both on and off the softball field, who talks about her continued struggles with body image.
Wow. Thank you, Lauren. I shared this on my Facebook page with the hopes that I'd remember it tomorrow, and the day after that, and the day after that...
And nope. That didn't seem to be enough. For whatever reason it didn't resonate enough. But after an accidental check of Facebook, I tripped over a post of a woman whose battle with a genetic disorder left her feeling as if she didn't look right for most of her life. Why? Because because people would ask 'Why?'.
She noticed that people would always comment on looks, whether it was a complement or a negative reflection. She felt that the way you look was the most important thing to people. As she started to get healthy, her goal was to become more 'athletic' and 'beautiful'. Something on her journey transformed not only her body, but also her thinking. It's too good to not share.